October passed by in a hurry, leaving me feeling not organised and rushed. Major decisions and plan to be made, that it was not easy to juggle between office works and personal life.
I got a very bad reading for my blood pressure. A health company came for a demo, and we have our check ups. Somehow, I scored at Level 1 High Risk BP, due to family history. So I have to follow up with the clinic on weekly basis as of now to ensure that my BP is progressing well.
After the first reading, I did a double take. I have been exhausting myself on my work, and the reading somehow was some sort of a wake up call. I messaged my husband after that, and suddenly feel exhausted after the ordeal (of just taking my BP). I did a second reading a few days after at another clinic, and somehow, the reading was the same as per previous reading.
I have to organise my life back, and I have to start all over. It was not easy, since I have been much more a workaholic after entering the new team. Albeit all this, the work loads keep coming (and we have to move to new office by end of November).
I cannot wait for the school holiday to start since we have book tickets to go to Legoland (yeay, finally! Since my kids have been asking non stop since the theme park's opening).
Sometimes, I wonder, if I have been working and give it all, would anybody appreciate it after maybe it is taken in the blink of an eye from me? Alhamdulillah, my sister reminds me on the purpose that we work because we want Allah's blessing. I have to remember that, I work to provide for myself and my family. I work because I want a halal source for my income, and with the salary that I gained, I will be buying clothes that cover my aurah, and halal foods for my family. I want my family to know that their mom / wife has loves them enough to work for them, to ensure that they were given the best in term of fulfilling their needs.
Well, that is what I believe. And somehow, I understand, after being a mom, the sacrifice that our parents made for us. To give the best to their family. I appreciate that my Ummi and Ayah are very determined in their life. I have the best memories of my childhood (even though my Ummi is the stern parent figure), and I did learn to let go the few memories that might not benefit me at all.
Alhamdulillah for the lesson in life.
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